Hey Ho! People aren't Angry. Just Busy.

One of the crappiest parts of this chronic illness is the rollercoaster it can send you on. Most of the time I steer clear away from even getting close to it. Then I have days where I physically feel horrible which leads into feeling rather down and it only takes one event to trigger the emotional chronically ill ride. (You must have a chronic illness to ride this ride.)

Here is a very abbreviated synopsis: A friend of mine didn't get back to my texts and the plans we made weeks ago fell through. Normally not a big deal. Only throw together a mix of 'what the hell' moments with the shakes and you get an 'out of proportion' catastrophe. I felt like one of those girls in junior high. Complete with the 'omg, she like totally hates me!' Alright. Not that bad but stupid all the same.

I was on this rollercoaster ride of irrational thinking for a good several days before finally disembarking this evening. Why was I able to do it? I found out a lot has happened to my friend. Things which finally made my chronically ill brain stop the rollercoaster. She was not angry with me. Just facing a difficult time at work. If I had just inquired about it I would have understood the scenario.

Sometimes I think my chronic illness is really destroying all common sense. Back in the healthy days I would never acted in such a way. I am unsure if this is because I was to lazy or just emotionally oblivious. My little sister would probably say it was a combination of the two. I am beginning to suspect she rather likes the new 'emotionally aware' side of me, courtesy of dealing with a chronic illness. Agh, at least one person can be happy in all of this. As for myself, I am celebrating the end of this emotional rollercoaster with sodium. Lots and lots of sodium with deep-fried tendencies. Bring on the gluten-free high-salt foods!*

*Before you point out having a lot of sodium is bad for your health let me inform you of my dietary needs. I am supposed to have a high-sodium diet. At one point I took salt pills because I naturally eat such a low-sodium diet. My neurologist, who I will see again over my dead body, would be pleased to know I am following his high-sodium orders this evening.

Positive Thought of the Day!: Stop with the negative scenarios and simply ask for the truth!